Taking Things for Granted

This should be rated as "For 25 and above, should have parental guidance". "Contents may include angry remarks." LOL!

"Saya rasa, kamu semua telah bagi yang terbaik. Style pelayanan s'karang senang saja. Sebab kampung, kan? Jadi, rilek sikit. You orang memang bagi yang terbaik, jangan tension sangat. Santai saja… ya? Santai saja."

Being sensitive to the Holy Spirit's movement, responding to needs at opportune moments, playing by ear are the few things we normally have to apply when serving God in ministering to people. God is no doubt the focus and the center in all we do, and it's by His grace that all things are made possible.

One of the few regrets of this mission trip was as the title spells. There were a few things I took for granted and mess mounted and miscommunications led to some hard feelings. I take responsible for all the mistakes as there was a breakdown in the "over communication" part and my members failed to work as planned.

Although we were not clearly briefed of what to be done for every session and each visit, but as people in ministry, the "always ready" attitude has to be there. Performance not up to par, brush it up. Can't speak well publically, write them down, practice it over and over again. Have never done a service, think it through, plan it out, decide on the flow and practice and over communicate it. Do not pray in BM, start uttering it before even leaving the island. Etc, etc… There were just so much we could have done.

I regretted the mess, and what we could have done better but we didn't. I know, by making all these mistakes, I was giving the villagers a 2nd class service. They deserve so much more, they are worth so much more. God did not send me there to give a discounted product, but the full package. I admit this, I fail.

People may give comforting comments as in first paragraph, but that's when we put our guards down thinking that we can handle it already. Ugh! This sucks.

Worry not, this is not the end of me serving Him. Mistakes I've made, lessons I've learnt are the things that will be very valuable to me in future, especially "Never take things for granted".

God, my boss, inspect my heart and attitude.