I Heard You, and I Miss Hearing You

Dearly Beloved,

O how clearly You sounded today. It was more than loud, it was also very alarming for me. When You speak, it's sharp, simple and it creates a ripple effect.

I knew You've been speaking all these while, You've been dropping hints and showing me through ways which You want me to see. I was blind, I was dumb, I was stubborn.

But today, when clearly I wasn't too on guard, I wasn't too well, You dropped the bomb. It stirred a storm within me, a typhoon, a gigantic earthquake deep down.

You dance over me While I am unaware You sing all around But I never hear the sound Lord I’m amazed by You Lord I’m amazed by You Lord I’m amazed by You How You love me How wide How deep How great Is Your love for me

I want to praise You, for You've answered. You always hear, You never fail to answer... I am learning to understand, lead me, Lord, never forsake me, O Lord.

Vapor in the Wind

In James 4:14, it says, "You do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away." God has over and over again reminded us of how frail our lives will be and how short and uncertain our days are, and again, the warnings were magnified over the course of this week.

See the waves and waters crossing the border of the lands, licking the livelihood of man away in just a matter of moments. The earth shook in an inconsistent manner, stumbling many buildings and causing many to loose their lives. Where has all the balance gone to? Isn't this a little too loud? Are we listening? Are you affected?

Verse 15, it says, "If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that." It is no longer our agenda anymore, not our call.

I recalled Ps Victor Wong's preaching on how we should live. He said, "If you know how to die, you will know how to live." I totally agree. Imagine, if you live your life backwards, knowing that there are so many things you'll leave behind when you're gone, you'll start to count those things that matters. And choices in life will be very different.

I know, if I die now, my family members will be the ones most affected. Next, will be my friends and the kids I have been living with. I realise, it's not about my work or career, nor the blocks I've been building that's going to be affected, but the people.

Focus, direction has to be realigned at this point to steer correctly.

Thank You, Father for speaking so loudly. How could I have missed it all these while?

The Captains' Reunion

Captain... Not the normal form of captains I am referring to here. Do you remember the childhood Captain we loved so much? The one that saves the planet? Wind, Fire, Water... yada yada yada... Yes, Captain Planet. Last Friday, was the reunion of the Captain "Crap"-s. "When the powers combine... " I am just quoting the "pillars".

Anyway, it was a great reunion for us. Simple, laid back, no hurry, lots of sleeping, eating and talking nonsense like how we used to hang-out. Of course, there were some serious talks. Scariest is when Justin start asking, "What do you see yourself as in 5 years time?" My first thought was, "Ya ampun... I'd be 31."

All of us are still the same, except that we've grown much more matured (*ahem* Older la tu...), have thought through things more, chosen things which are right. I am glad that all of us are up for the challenge ahead, to make a difference, to do something impactful. I am also glad that all our decisions made were not for ourselves... I guess that was the reason why we stuck together since years ago.

Father, I thank you for this GREAT blessing in my life. May You continually mold us and make us more and more like You, and do shape us to take up the many changes and still stay close to You and to each other. Father, shower on... into all our lives... with Your blessings.

Hammy

My deary hammy left his owner 2 weeks ago. Not sure what actually happened to him but I guess I have a part to pay in his leaving.

That's not him lying dead, but deep in his sleep. Blurry, cuz he's a ball of hair.

That's him, just got outta bed. Awaken by the owner.

So squashed.

He's been with me for close to 3 years. It feels weird without him running on the wheels outside my door. I miss having him close to me, sleeping like a log. I missed waking him up from him deep sleep. I missed his stares every morning, waiting for food to arrive. I miss his ferocious little character. I miss him...

La Tour de Penang... Deux

It's "THE" thing of the semester. This will be the second year we're doing this, thus "deux". Despite of the nonsense havoc the university has caused, students still stormed into the university. I've got a full list of people signed up and 3 on waiting list. This has nothing to do with my effort or any of my brilliant planning, reason being, I am still super stressed out now, with so many things on my brain.

God has got a great plan for this. Shall just do my best in what I can, and will leave the miracle to Him.

Pray for me, as I push my way through this weekend. I shall survive and live a conquerer!

2 Views of the Same Object

There's always a few perspective of the things we see. We stand from several view point and we'd naturally give different comments on things. It's good to understand things thoroughly, weighing all comments and all possibilities.

Tehehehe... Yes, I am getting to AI (Adam vs Kris).

Well, as for those whom knows that I am musically trained, I'd naturally see this whole "havoc" from the aesthetic angle. I heard Kris' version of No Boundaries on the radio earlier. That, only gave me a "Hmm... alright" kinda feeling. There was no "fireworks", no point where I could say, "Oh wow... He did that, how amazing.". Plain lah. Whereas, with Adam, it was only later that I heard it. The moment he sang and build towards the bridge, I could feel my goosebumps all over my arms and back. Astaga... Yes, it was so much better. He managed to carry the song very well, fully utilized the points where he can push to the max. He has his advantages by his range in his vocal capabilities, thus able to handle it.

Now, I brought this up to my brother. Same topic... of course with the other areas involving the factors that made America crown their recent AI. It was interesting that my brother was grateful that the decision was made. "At least they are still against the idea of Gay-ism." Moral health still exist in a country so advanced, this is already a miracle and something to be grateful for.

See, there are a different perspectives to things.

Then, I read this in The Case for Faith. Remember this little childhood story of a few blind man trying to figure out this huge creature that they were touching? One said, it's a fan. The other, a trunk. And another, a wall. Same thing. Different people will see things or feel things differently depending on where they stand and how they position themselves. The conclusion to this story is that, they are all wrong. The truth was, IT WAS AN ELEPHANT. Nothing more, nothing less. It was an elephant. Plain as that.

What's the truth? Have you ever asked? Have you ever wondered?

Sadly...

I'd have to say, I like Adam Lambert's version better.

I know I'll get fired by Kris' fans, but honestly, Adam's much better. I'll go through the details why later. It's CG time.

Adios!